ALD Stinks

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Let’s just say it out loud.

ALD stinks.

Not just in the big, life-altering, soul-stretching ways, but also in the very real, very human, very messy, very smelly, very unglamorous ways.

Yes… I’m talking about poop.

If you love someone with ALD — or live with it yourself — you have a poop story. Actually, you probably have many. Stories that make you cringe. The kind you never imagined would become part of your arsenal of cocktail-party stories.

But last month at the ALD Alliance conference, something amazing happened.

At dinner one night, a few of us started sharing our poop stories. The stories continued the next day around the conference and then when we went for drinks and ax throwing (ALD Alliance knows how to plan a fantastic event;-)).

As we shared our stories, instead of embarrassment… there was laughter. Real, deep, can’t-catch-your-breath laughter. The kind that only happens when you’re with people who get it. No explaining. In fact, we were all kind of trying to one up each other.

Telling these stories is not just about telling these stories. Telling these stories allows us to own them. Allows us to stop hiding and appreciate that there should NOT be shame in battling things we can’t control. Finding community that is there to listen and who understands is a gift. AND if we can laugh together, then it’s more than finding glider in a pile of shit –- it’s proving that we are stronger than our symptoms.

I won’t share any of Jack’s or my personal stories here, but let’s just say that Jack has left gifts at such remarkable places as The Boboli Gardens in Florence and in the parking lot at SPAC following a wonderful Dead and Co show AND I travel everywhere I go with a roll of toilet paper. My family knows when I say the words, “I need to go”, it doesn’t mean let’s make a stop at the rest area five miles ahead. 

As we were trying to come up with the next topic for ALD Connect’s Structured Mental Health call, I thought, let’s dive in and share some poop stories. It may provide people some great advice and treatments AND I know it will also provide us all with a safe space to share AND to laugh together.

Our friends Ken and Christie of ALD No Limits – who each may or not have some stories themselves – are talking about doing a poop episode on their podcast. Can’t wait to hear that one, but for now we will do it a little more privately. The call will not be taped so ALD folks – think of your best I cant’ believe this actually happened story and come join the fun.

The call In the Bowels of ALD is next Thursday, April 16th at 7 pm EST. 

Let’s take the shame out of things we can’t control and let’s turn embarrassment into laughter!!!

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again — ALD — shitty disease/great people!!!!!!!!!

Love, Jess

AND I know that many of you non-ALD folks have stories of your own … after all, everyone poops. I think the world would be a little better if we all shared that sometimes our bodies have minds of their own.

Rare Disease Day

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HaPpY rArE dIsEaSe DaY!

Rare Disease Day is a day that reminds the world that rare doesn’t mean small. It doesn’t mean insignificant. It doesn’t mean invisible.

It means there are families like ours — loving fiercely, advocating loudly, and learning to build beautiful lives in the middle of something we never would have chosen.

Jack’s life is beautiful. It’s big and full of love and fun and smiles.

Not because ALD is easy.
Not because the road has been smooth.
But because he is surrounded by smiles and his duct tape.

If you’ve followed this blog for any amount of time, you know what that means. Smiles are the joy, the hockey nights, the ordinary Tuesdays that feel like victories. Duct tape is the holding-together — the people in Jack’s life that are always here to help, to laugh, to figure out how to have fun with JackO. Duct tape is also the logistics, the medical appointments, the day programs, the caregivers that have become Jack’s Other Mothers (they are huge part of the smiles too), the medications, the research, the hard conversations, the resilience that shows up when it has to.

Jack’s life is held together by all these things, but I want to give a special shout out to the medical professionals who dedicate their careers to rare diseases, researchers who refuse to stop until treatments become possible.

The treatments Jack has received did not appear out of thin air. They are the result of decades of science, advocacy, fundraising, and families who said, “Not good enough. Keep going.”

We are profoundly grateful.

To celebrate Rare Disease Day, our family created a fundraising page for ALD Connect.

Thank you to every friend and family member who has already donated to ALD Connect through our page. JackO sends each of you a warm smile, a killer hug and a lick if you’re really lucky. Thank you to members of the ALD community who understand this life from the inside out. And, a special thank you to the under 30 crowd who made donations. I know times are complicated and wallets may be thin. My niece, Sara, gets a shout out for being the youngest giver and I also want to recognize and thank several of Anna’s friends — some who have known and loved JackO for many years, and some who haven’t yet had the pleasure of meeting him.

Many of these kids (always kids to me) will soon begin their lives as physicians. The fact that they have ALD on their radar — that this rare disease is no longer invisible to them — matters more than they probably realize. One day, they will sit in exam rooms and carry that awareness forward. That’s how change happens.

That’s how rare becomes recognized.

If you feel moved, I invite you to make a donation to ALD Connect through our fundraising page. Your support funds research, education, and connection for families navigating this disease. It helps ensure that more children with ALD, more adults with ALD and more families dealing with ALD every single day (NOT just Rare Disease Day) have access to treatments, information, and community.

Rare Disease Day is not just about what we are fighting — It is about what we are building!

Love, Jess

ALD No Limits

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Mymom and I were recently interviewed by friends and fellow ALD folks, Ken and Christie, for ALD No Limits, and I can confirm: speaking about ALD feels great, but it’s a little distracting when the whole time you’re wondering, “Is it strange that my mother and I have the same haircut?”

But in all seriousness, what Ken and Christie are doing by sharing these stories is incredible.

ALD is complicated. It is medical and emotional and genetic and generational and can be different for every person/family. For our family it is motherhood and frustration and pain and fear and celebration and advocacy all wrapped into one long story. And getting to sit beside Mymom — we are two women connected by more than just DNA — and talk about what this journey felt powerful.

It felt honest.

It felt a little vulnerable.

It felt like we were connecting with community.

I know most of you many know our story, but if you’ve ever wondered what living with ALD looks like across generations… if you’ve ever wanted to understand the human side of this diagnosis… if you’ve ever needed proof that you can carry something heavy and still laugh — I hope you’ll watch.

ALD No Limits

You will see:

  • A mother and daughter trying not to talk over each other.
  • A mother and daughter who share a haircut and ALD and a love for JackO.
  • A few earnest moments.
  • A lot of heart.
  • At least one facial expression I didn’t rehearse.

Most importantly, you’ll see why sharing your story is important. 

Community is not optional in rare disease. It is survival. It is education. It is connection. It is the life vest when the waters feel rough. Thank you Ken and Christie for creating this incredible platform and for inviting Mymom and I to participate!

If the video moves you — even a little — please consider supporting ALD Connect. Your donation funds necessary research, helps families find answers, find each other, and find steadier ground.

DONATE HERE

Watch. Share. Donate.
And maybe forgive my camera face. 😉

Love,
Jess

Life Vest

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Returning to Chile After 19 Years

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By the time Jack was eight years old he had been to Chile three times. It’s where I was born, where we have family and where my folks have a beautiful property. Chile was a huge part of my childhood, and it was going to be a huge part of my children’s lives.

Then ALD changed so many of our plans.

For nineteen years, Chile lived in the category of someday.
Not because we didn’t want to go—but because of the what ifs.

What if Jack had trouble on the flight (11 hours overnight)?
What if he couldn’t tolerate the change in routine?
What if he had an accident mid-flight?
What if something went wrong and we were far from home, far from familiarity, far from safety?

If you live with ALD, you know these what ifs well. They multiply quietly over time, stacking themselves into reasons not to go, not to risk, not to try. And so, for nineteen years, we didn’t return to Chile—the place we once loved, the place tied to memories from before diagnosis, before life split into “before” and “after.”

But this year, we went anyway.

It started as what felt like a dare. Anna announced that she and her boyfriend, Asher, had spoken to my folks about going to Chile. She was only six years old the last time we were there and has always felt cheated from Chilean memories. She announced that my parents were not only encouraging the trip, but wanted to join them. Anna reminded us that this may be the only window of time she has for such a trip as graduation approaches and residency looms. She said that going as a family would mean the world to her. 

Then my folks started their campaign. 

Conversations that ended with maybes were followed with links to airline tickets and hotel information. My parents are beyond generous and know how to make things happen.

So, Christmas Eve we put the what ifs in a box and went to Chile.

It wasn’t a small undertaking. It was ten days away, involved four flights, unfamiliar beds, new foods, long days, and the emotional weight of returning to a place we hadn’t seen since Jack was diagnosed.

And many of the what ifs came true.

  • Jack did not sleep one single wink on any of our four flights. Not one. 
  • As we boarded our flight to Puerto Montt, Jack pooped. We were told that we couldn’t return to the terminal bathroom so we sat for 90 minutes with poop and unhappy glares from our fellow passengers.
  • At the end of a beautiful six-course, wine-paired meal at a vineyard, Jack suddenly vomited all over the table. It was embarrassing, yes—but more than that, it was scary. That split second where your heart drops, your mind races, and you wonder if this is the beginning of something bigger.
  • There were also an assortment of large uber tips following pee stains and the need to find bathrooms in the most unlikely places – yes toileting for both Jack and I is always an adventure.

But here’s the part that matters most — We survived.

Not just survived—we adapted, adjusted, laughed when we could, cried when we needed to, and kept going. We leaned on each other. We problem-solved. We reminded ourselves that discomfort is not the same as danger, and fear does not get to make all the decisions.

And in between the hard moments, there was so much good. There was beauty. There was connection. There were delicious empanadas and more pisco sours than I should have enjoyed. There was joy in being together, in watching Jack, Anna and Asher experience something new, watching my parents share stories and experiences, and in reclaiming a place that once felt stolen from us for nearly two decades.

ALD has taken enough. It has taken certainty, ease, and spontaneity. But it does not get to take our lives.

This trip to Chile wasn’t about perfection. It wasn’t smooth, or restful. It was real. It was messy. It was brave. AND it was Instagram worthy – enjoy the photos!

It was also proof that we will not let the what ifs win.

Because here’s what we learned, nineteen years later:
We can be scared—and still go.
Things can go wrong—and still be okay.
We can live with ALD—and still thrive.

Thank you Anna for the push and thank you Nonno and Mymom for the glorious trip!

Love, Jess

beyond lucky

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Summer 2025 — Birthdays, Travel, Words and AI

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Celebrating Jack and His Ripples

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Years #18 — Day #6575

Eighteen years ago, we watched as stem cells went into Jack’s body. The room was full. Our Torrey 4, Mymom, Nonno, several doctors, countless nurses, and a huge amount of hope. Hope that the cells would take over and stop the disease that was destroying Jack’s brain. Hope that we would bring Jack home. Hope that our lives would return to normal.

Seventy-nine days later, two of those hopes had come true. The transplant had worked and Jack was home. But that last hope—the one where life would return to “normal”—never quite happened.

Eighteen years later, we’ve learned that “normal” wasn’t something to return to. Instead, we’ve built something new—something extraordinary. Our lives have shifted in ways we never imagined. Our perspectives, our dreams, even our careers—changed. And in those changes, something beautiful has grown.

This is the ripple effect: how one moment—one life—one experience—can reach far beyond what we can see.

If Jack’s journey has touched your life, we’d love for you to share your story. How has his story touched your life? How did these ripples go beyond you?

I’m starting to compile a list of stories of the ripples Jack created. I want to have them all in one place to treasure them, celebrate them—this is Jack’s legacy. Please share them here or send them to jctorrey@mac.com.

Happy Birthday JackO!!!! 

And thank you in advance or helping us put the ripples together.

Love, Jess

A special thank you to the parents of “The Little Lady from Detroit” who donated the cord blood that saved Jack’s life — THAT was the stone that started the ripples!!!!!!!

 

Trust, Trips, Texts and Dance Lessons

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MAX 5/15/2021-2/6/2025

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We adopted Max just three years ago. He had been fostered by a lovely Maplewood family. We went to their house to meet him and there was something about Max’s big ears and crooked smile that made us fall in … Continue reading →