This morning I was sitting in my office feeling overwhelmed as I poured through my syllabi for the winter term. I was busy second-guessing my decision to return to school at my age and wondering how on earth I was going to manage, when I heard Maria (Jack’s caregiver), “JackO – why are you crying?”
I race downstairs to find our boy in front of Maria’s phone, watching a video with big tears rolling down his face.
Shakira singing John Lennon’s Imagine.
You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope some day you’ll join us
And the world will be as one
Don’t ever confuse Jack’s silence with not understanding. He recognizes powerful words when he hears them and sometimes his emotions take over. Perhaps his silence allows him to listen even closer than many of us. I’m always amazed by the beauty of these moments. Maria offered to turn off the song, but I insisted that we continue. Tears aren’t always such a bad thing — beside I needed a little perspective this morning.
Love you JackO. And, John Lennon and Shakira too;)
Love, Jess